What if….

The words rolled slowly off his tongue

my heart began to race,

many visions filled my mind,

as my eyes darted around the room.

I felt as though I’d been cornered,

fear rose like a flame,

what would tomorrow bring for me,

and would it bring more pain.

I close my eyes in hopes of melting,

into the world around me,

perhaps if I pretend he’s joking

then the future will be fine.

Too young to hear those spoken words,

Too young to have such fear,

Too young to have to say good-bye,

Too young, too young to die.

Turn….

Turn

I find a reflection smiling

a security wrapping itself around me,

Blink

I see a scared image

unsure of which way to turn,

Breathe

I feel a warmth beginning

flowing through my veins,

Believe

I see a family healing

and growing each new day.

Within….

Emotions deep, hidden away

desires suppressed, covered

thoughts of us marred by shadows

a future so unsure of.

Lost…

Numb

from the words slicing through my heart

Searching

for the man I cared so deeply for

Curious

as to how we ended up here

Tired

of the fighting and arguing

Weary

from being broken down

Empty

of emotions and feelings

Lost

trying to find my way home.

Why….

Cutting words,

Slicing through my skin

Sharp edges,

Cutting away layers of my soul

Why

Your words,

Making their way to my heart

Ripping from me,

My last breath of happiness.

Why

Anger,

Pushing you deeper

Revenge,

Feeding your fire

Why

Tears falling,

from my soul

Pain filling,

Every waking moment

Why

No longer,

Can I live in fear

No longer,

Can sadness consume me

Because

Serenity,

I need to find

Honesty,

I need to feel

Because

Together,

You and I are not meant to be.

You…..

Your breath upon my skin

your whisper in my ear

a gentle caress on my arm

one look from your eyes.

Joy within my soul

love within my world

belonging and acceptance

of who I really am.

Longing to be with you

dreaming of tomorrow

reaching out to your hand

knowing you are near.

Growing older….

A fog slowly creeps through my mind

clouding thoughts

causing stillness .

A flicker of a moment almost in sight

almost grasped

just out of reach.

My mind not as sharp as once before

not to be trusted

not as sure.

Age creeping up on me slowly

a cruel fate

a tiresome journey.

Another year…..

Thank you for the life you given

Thank you for the lessons learned

Thank you for the love I feel

Thank you for the home provided.

Many trials we have fought

Many problems overcome

Many sleepless nights in sadness

Many in each others arms.

Memories of happy times

Memories of joyful moments

Memories of secrets shared

Memories to ponder on.

Another year of you and I

Another new adventure

A new day waking to your voice

A Happy Anniversary.

My daughter….

Laughing, giggling, squealing

blond hair bouncing

sparkling eyes

the sound of small feet running

Still laughing, giggling, learning

blond  hair swept up

eyes still sparkling

a young woman you’ve become

Learning, maturing, helping

giving aid to those in need

eyes looking deeper

of you my daughter I’m proud.

A day spent with family…..

 

 

Laughter rising from the steel partition

the sound of motors rumbling

gears grinding 

emotions swelling with excitement.

The look of fear exploding as the ride begins

squeals emitting from the mouths

of eager riders.

Sheer enjoyment on a sunny day

spent with family

in an amusement park.

The soft leathery feel 

of a Beluga whale

underhand.

Watching the mermaids of the sea

float effortlessly through 

the water.

Home, tired, happy, sun kissed.